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Just a girl. » Cassie. Cynical almost-sixteen year old. Blonde hair that looks too red, &never does what it's wanted to do. Readable icy blue eyes. Dreaming in black&white. (Who can really see all the colors, anyway?) Longs for the kind of love that only exists in books & fairytales & movies. Misses the past; tries to look to the future. In love with love. Ex-optimist, &the future's looking bleak. Too tall. Too skinny. Too much of everything that she doesn't want to be. Lives with over-bearing step-father, a mother who likes to be a victim, a step-brother who has no heart, &a little brother that thinks he's black. Wants to be a nurse. Pretends she's a writer & photographer. _. (I can hear you when you whisper, but you can't even hear me screaming.)

Dream on, &on. » When I "grow up," so to speak, I want to be a pediatric oncological nurse. What does that mean to you? It means I want to be a nurse with children that have cancer. People tell me that's going to take a lot of, um, willpower & emotional control. I don't have that just yet, &I'm not sure I ever will, but I can always have a test-run & change my mind. I want to go to Baylor University, an almost-elite college about an hour from where I live. I don't know how many kids I want. I don't know when I want to get married or what kind of person I want to marry. I want to live in San Antonio, TX, perhaps after I finish my school (that's about four hours from where I live now). A few goals of mine before I die are to take a road trip, write a novel, learn to play some guitar & piano (even if only a little), &live happily ever after, even if it's in the lamest sort of way. (But who can decide what they dream, and dream unto?)

Play it loud. » I like to believe myself to be eccentric. I love all kinds of music, including country. I'm not particular on classical, because it makes me sleepy, but I like it nonetheless. My favorite band right now is Evanescence. But some old favorites that won't fade no matter what are The Atari's, Bright Eyes, Dashboard Confessional, Cursive, Finch, Staind, Nirvana, &more. I don't want to bore people with too many names. (If the bright lights don't recieve you, you should turn around & come on home.)

Couch potatoe. » I love Friends, Will&Grace, Crossing Jordan, Third Watch, Boston Public, E.R., Scrubs, Blind Date, Elimidate, The Fifth Wheel, Change of Heart, &Rendez-vous. I <3 movies, too. My favorite movies include anything involving some sort of romantic plot. I'm such a sucker for romance. Amelie, Ghost World, Gone With the Wind, Scarlett, The Thorn Birds John Wayne movies, &anything else. I <3 movies. Mmhm. (She keeps a picture of me in her apartment in the city.)

Full of words. » I have an insecurity with trust, which therefore leaves me with a friend's-only journal. But I also have insecurities with trust that make me do it so easily. So if you comment, I'll probably add you. I just like to know who's reading. Helps me to decide if I really want to keep them on my list or not. This journal is vulgar, boring, but honest, &it's mine. <3. (You left a stain on every one of my good days.)

» I've spent so much time throwing rocks at your window that I never even knocked on the front door.

Lyrics courtesy of Matchbox 20 & Evanescence.